Just expressin

[RainDrizzle07]

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12-10-09

01:49 AM


Just got back from Loft, had a glass of screwdriver with the people that I love. And. No. I.Am.Not.Drunk.Nor.Tipsy. my eyes just hurting though, "hapdos" lang gyapon after a whole day's work, always OT,wake up early. In short I really don't have the 8 hour sleep.Do I look ugly because of this? probably.. but I will still be beautiful in my eyes ^_^

And yes my hair stinks as always from the cigarette smokes..I will probably die first before them..lol.. as I am the only one who doesn't smoke.. how I wish that Cebu is Davao with regards to the clubbing stuff, in Davao you can't find an open bar/club after 12mn and there is only one bar who has a permit to have the smokin inside... and nobody is allowed to buy alcoholic beverage at 2am onwards...^_^ The very reason why I love Davao..I just love the place, wherein I really don't need to take a shower before goin to sleep coz my hair smells the same.

Tomorrow they will be in Manila and in a way I really feel bad bout it coz I should be with them for that said business&pleasure trip ^_^ but then again, Manila will just be there, dli bitaw mo dagan ang Manila ug uban pang parte sa Luzon ug sa tibouk Pilipinas.. ^_^

And they already told me na I need to save na daw for a trip to Hong Kong this May @_@ murag naka ingon ko *ouch* taysa...murag unattainable jud na xa nako karon..and ana cla na May paman you can still save...well if I'm gonna think of myself alone...its pretty easy...pero I have my mother, my brother, then my lola.. ^_^ (tax palang sa balay ^_^ halos wla nay mabilin sa akoa) well at least I am able to help them and I make them happy & besides I am single who doesn't have any responsibilities, except buying some grocery or handing some cash to my mother. Do I have a savings? NO. Why? because I really don't leave something for myself, I give it all away. Is it healthy? NO. ^_^

Aside from that 1st problem with my pamasahe to Hong Kong (pero deep inside if ever it will push through I will still be able to go. I think, as they will gonna shoulder the expenses.Yes, That's how much they love me) my other problem would be my passport.. I lost it last June together with all my other ID's and well I was not able to really go back to the DFA to confirm and have the clearance process for me to be able to get a new one.

And honestly I am not that thrilled of goin out of the country, I would rather explore the Philippines first before goin out.. and the only place that I really wish to go... is Baguio ^_^ (mababaw ba? well I don't care ^_^)been to Tagaytay and to some other places in the Philippines but would still want to go back to that place..for relaxation.. in the future ^_^

AM. I tipsy? No. Just sharin ^_^


Thanks... ^_^


More Power & God BLess ^_^

[touch_me_not]

hey, sis makarelate jud ko nmu, reading all your journals, your sentiments, the way you think of yourself, the way way you carry yourself, showing insensitivity to to others, the way you cope up with your emotions, .your realizations, i could really see myself in you...naa jud times in a month nga emo jud kaayo,...and at times like this sometimes i would scribble down my thoughts...heehe...maybe you're a little bit depressed...but it's ok sis..that's life....im using this thought for me to live a life...."being happy doesnt mean everything is perfect, it means uv decided to see life beyond imperfections, so don't say you're happy because evrything is all right but be happy because everything "sucks" and you're doing just fine.....hahayz..as of this moment gani emo nasd ko naa ko work pero wai gana e work...heheh...it's as if im carrying half the weight of the whole world at least gaan gaan na compared before nga whole world jud...ahehehe...

[RainDrizzle07]

hey, sis makarelate jud ko nmu, reading all your journals, your sentiments, the way you think of yourself, the way way you carry yourself, showing insensitivity to to others, the way you cope up with your emotions, .your realizations, i could really see myself in you...naa jud times in a month nga emo jud kaayo,...and at times like this sometimes i would scribble down my thoughts...heehe...maybe you're a little bit depressed...but it's ok sis..that's life....im using this thought for me to live a life...."being happy doesnt mean everything is perfect, it means uv decided to see life beyond imperfections, so don't say you're happy because evrything is all right but be happy because everything "sucks" and you're doing just fine.....hahayz..as of this moment gani emo nasd ko naa ko work pero wai gana e work...heheh...it's as if im carrying half the weight of the whole world at least gaan gaan na compared before nga whole world jud...ahehehe...

hehehe.. you can use this thread to express sis.. after all this is the reason why I have this..though its kinda nice kay its an interactive journal man..

Deep inside I am really hoping that no one will gonna say stupid stuff on what I have been expressin..but since I post it so there are no guarantee that no one will say some stuff..

I love that thought sis..its really nice..it has some content sa kadto kang Leonardo Di Caprio na salida, THe Beach ba to? I forgot the title.. my view on happiness if you are contented with what you have then there is no reason for you to not to be happy ^_^ and right now I am very much contented pero as a human we tend to become emotional once in a while and we just need to vent/rant what we are feelin and not askin for any advice, we just need someone to listen, like really listen.. ^_^

The other reason I made this thread is because I know there are a lot of individual who can relate.. coz at one point we can never really tell anything and everything to the people who matters to us, as to avoid them feeling guilty or hurt.. or just to avoid any discussion kay they will end up become to defensive when you open, which really sucks honestly kay you all you wanna do is to express lang jud..not for them to feel guilty, defensive or anything pero just the same they also have their emotions to defend ^_^

Mao btaw na why discussions/opening up will close tungod both parties will become too defensive namn or will think na what would be my rebuttal sa iya next row of sentence..mao na ang end up they won't be able to really listen to each other.

If only relationship and everything would be this easy but it is not. Mao na I always think pud on this thought when I am having trouble;

"10% of Life is made up of what happens to you, 90% of Life is made up of how you react to what happens to you". ^_^

Ka na bitawng when I am in a situation wherein I want to scream.. hahaha.. mao na ako pirmi huna2xon..

Pero I really can't afford to be weak or to let them see na I want to breakdown..kay I really don't want my family to worry and I wouldn't like my bf to ask me row of questions.

Right now what I would really love to do is to go home to the Island, maligo ug dagat tibouk adlaw..and eat inun unan... ^_^ Nice kaayo ang feeling kay murag ako ang tag iya sa dagat..hahaha.. well ako raman sad usa ang maligo beh... ^_^ pero the peace, the fresh air.. *sigh* is really something na I always look forward too

And I am just sooo happy kay naay istorya.net
(though I could have probably blog to other website but I choose it here kay mga bisaya and pinoy man naa dnhi ^_^)

[RainDrizzle07]

12.10.09

15:36 PM


Dear God, ^_^

Please help, as I still have 12 days more to go without day off and I am not sure if we will be able to really take a break this Dec. 23 up to Dec.28 as we won't be doin anything during those days, but honestly I really doubt it. My boss is not a slave driver but it is still a weekday and even though we won't be doin anythin except set in our chair and wait for any call. We will still need to work, deep inside I am wishin that she will let us have that break...LoL.. ^_^

As we have been workin for almost a month without a break, good thing that last Monday is a holiday coz if its not then we will probably be workin the whole 30days of December. @_@

And I am already feeling the stress of not able to get proper sleep (partly it is also my fault ^_^ *peace*) or not even seeing the sun. And I haven't been to church for so long now. But you know I always talk to you. All day everyday ^_^

Though I am still thankful that I still have today to be able to go home early and probably sleep at 7 or 8. And I would really love to get a massage as well.. because tomorrow until the 30th I'll probably be workin for 12 - 16 hours.

And thank you so much too for not makin me sick ^_^ for keepin me healthy despite everything ^_^

Thank you for all the blessings & I apologize for my shortcomings.

I Love You. God. ^_^

[RainDrizzle07]

Just want to share this to you from

BoSanchez.ph Wealth Is A Feeling

kahilakon okz..pagbasa... ^_^

I was very touched when my friend Dave Quintana shared this with me. He’s an American missionary who worked among the poorest of the poor in Payatas.

One day, he met a little boy there, working in the garbage dump. He befriended him and asked him, “What’s your favorite food?” For a few seconds, the boy didn’t answer. The question was totally foreign to him.

He finally said, “Yung pagkain na hindi bulok.”

Food that isn’t spoiled. That was his favorite food.


how many of us bitaw na daghan au yawyaw bout sa food na ato gkaon, or if naa man gani pagkaon sa table mangita pa jud ug lain.. and yet there are others na wla man lang jud gani gkaon... TT_TT

dli jud ko makalimot aneh nga lesson coz my brother is pili an man ug food then pagka bata namo.. mangita jud na xa ug wla sa table.. then ako mama ning ana jud na "ayaw gud mo pag ingon ana, kay kita mo atong bata na magtulod2x sa kariton? may gani kamo igo nalang mo mo kaon, ang uban bata knahanglan pa mo trabaho, mamasura aron makakaon" TT_TT murag 6 or 7 guro ko pag sulti nya aneh.. TT_TT mao na ako bsag unsa pag kaona mo kaon jud ko... ^_^ just as long as its edible... ^_^

[RainDrizzle07]

12.11.09

18:36PM

I feel like an overcooked pasta!

@Work today.

My very handsome colleague forgot to mention to the client that we can't accommodate all their request.

So when the client find out, She freaked out and I became the wrath receiver.

While listening to her rant over the phone.. I also need to think of all the possible solutions I can come up in order to pacify her.

As my handsome colleague does not want to talk to her anymore..

Good thing at the end she was pacified and well my colleague was able to find a solutions to his very horrible mistake!

But still the conversation leaves me very weak.. @_@

I need to sugar high!!

choco-honey-dipped-and-bavarian-munchkins.Please.

[RainDrizzle07]

12.12.09

10:11AM

Today.

I read the news paper article today titled "20 REason why I hate Twilight"

I read it because I really really love twilight and yes she's got a point. Pero just the same I read for recreational purposes only. And Twilight is one of the book that I considered a No.Brainier. If you get what I mean. just for Fun. But she's got a point that somewhere,somehow an adolescent confused kid might get a wrong impression on relationship & stuff, but don't we all experience it? ^_^ Even the one we considered mature still has some trouble with relationships.

[Blackjellybean27]

hahaha... enkz you... btw... dli pa ko maka add.. kay dli pd ang FB dnhi..@_@ makabaug!!
work ko karon sistero... until 12mn cguro ko...
kaw nag wat ka? ^_^
musta?

i'm okay sisterette. bag-o lng ko ka time balik diri sa thread mo hehe.
hay hang in there lang. gamay nalng na days left then you can rest rest rest na next month (i Hope!)
im stuck here later at home with a bottle of beer, all by my freakin self. i was supposed to go to a party later, bt my friend bcked out k she had somewhere to go. so im left without anything to do k i cant go to the party alone k ma OP unya ko cz i dont know anybody there except the hostess, so mejo busy baya sya to attend to me dba?
so yah, big bottle of beer and me and istorya probably. LOL!

[RainDrizzle07]

12-13-09

@12mn

@Nuvo for the first time in my life I hang out and drank beer/tanduay ice with a total stranger ^_^

(as you see I only go out and hang out with my toddler friends and half of them happens to be my relative ^_^, and when I was in my adolescent period I hang out with classmates,and when I finally reach legal age I hang out with my 3 genuine friends, then just last month I hang out with my co gamer, a guy who is from my Clan/Guild in the RPG that I was playin, whom I know for 2 years now but just meet him for the first time in person last month,he was in Cebu for the first time as well to play this Airsoft competition in Danao)

And I realize it is not sooo bad...LoL..though I did not feel na I'm out of place, well at least the one who invited me did not make me feel na I am out of place. ^_^ ( pero just a thought, was it really the person you are with makes you feel out of place? or you make yourself out of place? I think it depends on the situation,right? what do you think?^_^)

Though I was just soooooooooooooo embarrass as you see I really need to leave early as I still have work today (yes I still work on Sundays and for December I don't have a day off ^_^) so I hurriedly ride a cab and while I was inside the cab I am already feeling asleep..then it hit me!! waaaaaaaaaa.. I forgot to pay for the Tanduay Ice.. waaaaaaaaaaa.. very embarrassing. TT_TT I told the Driver "Boss, pd ta balik naa lang ko nakalimtan" then I changed my mind again and said "aw, ayaw nalang diay boss, Im gonna pay it next time nalang" then the Driver ask, "unsa diay imong nakalimtan mam?' I told him "I forgot to pay for my drink" and we both laugh..

Anyway when I got home I hurriedly open a cup noodles ( I know this is not healty, pero I am a certified addict to noodles) as its a lil cold last night due to the drizzle..

Then a lil later I went to sleep.

[RainDrizzle07]

12-13-09

@08:00Am Today

I wake up very grateful today.

Supposedly I need to be at the office by 8:30Am but since I wake up at 8:00Am ^_^ so literally I am really late, and when I went to the bathroom my cousin is already inside while one of our female boarder is waiting for her, then she ask me "ikaw ang mosunod?" and I said "uu, but don't worry magdali ra ko kay late na jud ko" ^_^ and she replied "ako pud late na pud ko" then my cousin probably hear us called me and said "maligo na ka? dali sabay nalang ta" and I said yes then turn to our boarder and told her "okey na solve na ato problem ^_^" so mao to sabay mi sa ako cousin naligo..

After naligo of course nag ilis ko then eat my breakfast and went to Carmelite ^_^

And there I talk to God.

I thank God for everything; from the air that I breath up to the people that I meet. ^_^
I thank God for my mother, grandmother, brother, all my families & friends.
I thank God for my job, my colleague and for my boss.
And of course I thank God for my boyfriend ^_^

And I asked for forgiveness of course I always do this, as a human who is bound with our emotions sometimes we do and say things that hurts others intentionally & unintentionally. ^_^

And then I pray for my friend who's having some trouble with his finances right now and he doesn't want her girlfriend to know bout it, but at the end of the day he runs to her for help. If only he can really be totally honest with her about it, but then again as a man who has his stupid pride ^_^, supposedly he is the one who should provide right and help his gf financially as he is the one working, while her gf is at home, a princess ^_^ lolz. (just kidding)

But honestly if he could be just 101% honest with her bout his finances then she won't gonna go and nag bout it, well if I were also the GF and my boyfriend will just text me at 12:00nn and asked me that "love, do you know someone who we can borrow 50k with, coz I really need the money at 1:30pm" -dili kaha mo ulbo imong kaspa anah? taga an ka ug 1hr just to look for that amount?- nakz!

Do I pity them? No. as I know they both love each other and will able to solve their problem pero just the same...He just needs to be honest with her, I am not sure if he know how much she loves him.

Then I pray for my other friend, who at her age still doesn't have a family to call her own and at the same time she doesn't have a boyfriend or a love life, as she was too occupied working, her career eats up all her time, and just this year she decided to quit her job, for 15 years. and decided to put up her own business, is she successful? very successful. As a single lady herself she already have a million savings in her bank, but then again she has work for 15 years right? ^_^ but as a saving it was there in her bank,sleeping.

The reason why I pray for her is because I asked God to send someone to be with her, who gonna love her for what and who and how she is, physically she is not the one you can really call beautiful,like me, I am physically unattractive, plain. (but of course for me I am VERY BEAUTIFUL ^_^) it doesn't matter to me but it does matter to her a great deal, I can't really blame her as she is already in her 30's and she doesn't have a boyfriend and at her age she is the type who still base everything from the book (I can't blame her as well for 15 years her routines is only -home-work-and probably a laag with friends if there is a free time) She feels she is unloved.

And I also pray that somehow she will really be able to see that she really needs to LOVE HERSELF FIRST and LOVE HERSELF MORE. before someone will really see her as she is and love her. Don't get me wrong she is very very kind, generous pero the thing lang is she is the type who buy you with everything you like or she thinks that you like just to make you her friend or to make you stick with her, you get what I mean? ( Am I being ungrateful? not really, but sometimes I am, specially when I feel that I need to "baby sit" her)

As a person she is very very very sensitive in an unhealthy way for herself, you can't used words or tell her something that you know will make her feel bad, EVEN IF ITS NOT YOUR INTENTION AND YOU DON'T REALLY THINK THAT, she will think the worst way! and she'll gonna get pissed!! then will have her tantrums... @_@

And when you cross her or you really make something that make her feel bad. Don't be shock if the next day some of your friends are not your friends anymore.. she is also like that ( I know, I know she has a lot of growing up to do)

And she wants to be in the limelight, like you need to introduce her to who's who, she wants to be popular, known (well if you are working for 15 years as an assistant won't you want to become the boss? Not.Me.Personally, but she loves to be "THE ONE")

I did pray for God to really heal her..

And I also pray for every body and everyone