This is CONFUSING.. HELP!

[meimei16069]

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this week, i've said many bad accusations to my bf. i know sakit jud ko manulti and i'm wrong for having done such thing. next day, ghuman ako bf iya work para mgkauban npd mi. i'm always saying i miss him. unya april 2, bday sa iya manghud nga 1st year college, wa xa hng uli ky gs2 nya mag uban mi. nya ky muad2 mn ko ug cebu krng adlawa ky ubanan nku ako mma sa iya bday krng april 5. ingn xa, d dw xa msugot. n-sacrifice gneh knu xa 4 mi nya ako nganu dli mn dw. wa njd q ksabot nya.. nganu d mn xa msabot oi.. seloso rba jd kaau. ug naay laki mtan.aw or mhikap nho, maapil ko sa iya kasuko ky m.ingn xa wa dw koi nbuhat pra m.iwas ad2 nga guy.. mau mn lgeh khbw ko nga labtan ko, d mn. understanding mn xa, buotan nya willing kaau m.risk for me, sometimes lang jd, d ko gnhn sa iya sobra k.seloso.. one day, kta ko sa iya cp pgpalit nya ug sud.an, nkkta ko naay reminder sa calendar for the whole month of march, nkabutang dd2: "Ayaw na palabi ug selos para malipay na nmu c meimei16069(that's me) hehe.." nkahilak gud ko ky n.touched ko.. mhadlok dw xa m.nluv ko sa lain ky tnud.anay na dw ning iya, ika 3 pa gd ko nya nga gf nya ang iya ex ky mao jd ang nkgbuwag nya 4 no any reasonable reasons jd, saksi jd ko sa ila pagbuwag. do you think love jd ko niya?
i also need your advices mga fellow istoryans.. i know i can count on you guys..

[cptn_star]

hhhmm...kuwang ra man na sa s2rya...a heart to heart, sincere talk about that matter could ease things up...saktong pagpasabot lang jud ang kinahanglan ana...kinahanglan pa sad makat.on imo yayabz na mosalig nmo...

[pinkavaya]

sakto.. communication man jud ang key sa relationship..
if wala moy communication..naa na diha mo kickIn ang mga doubts.. then doubts og walay pag salig pud..
so you have to let him know and let him feel pud na youre olwiz there for him.. and talk mo heart to heart

[meimei16069]

hhhmm...kuwang ra man na sa s2rya...a heart to heart, sincere talk about that matter could ease things up...saktong pagpasabot lang jud ang kinahanglan ana...kinahanglan pa sad makat.on imo yayabz na mosalig nmo...

well then, how can i make him trust me? it's been months nga naau nako ako computer.. wala xa khbw nga au na. wala nako phbaw.a kay d man gud na xa gnhn nga mag net ko, ako gneh g.cancel ako friendster ug ym nya.. pero wa ko nya pugsa nga himuon toh. 8s my choice ky d npd ko gnhn ug away.. mhdlok mn gd xa nga magka communicate mi sa akong mga friends labi na ug mga laki ky you know nah, bsin dw mdevelop ko nla.. kansi dw xa. cgeh ra dw xa biyaan, nagtinarong rba unta cja.. kansi kno xa kay pobre. wa dw xa ikabuga kay kasagaran na dw krn kay practical..

[meimei16069]

sakto.. communication man jud ang key sa relationship..
if wala moy communication..naa na diha mo kickIn ang mga doubts.. then doubts og walay pag salig pud..
so you have to let him know and let him feel pud na youre olwiz there for him.. and talk mo heart to heart

ang2 mn gud, mhdlok ko m.open nya ky dali rmn gud xa msktan, i don't know where to start..
actually, maihap rjd ang iya sayop namu sa among 5mos. murag, 3 ra guro, ako dghan na.. gsikreto pd nho nga nagtx2 ko ug laing mga friends, ako rba ang nagpasiuna ug ingn nga dli magtx2 ug lain, kami ra duha.. hangtod n.wrong send ko, sakpan ko nya.. but dli man toh 3rd party, friend2 lng gud.. nhan lang ko tx2 .. nya kay nasuko jd xa. mau unta knu ug wala nlng ko nisulti nga kmi ra duha magtx2.. anyway, bsan d ko msulti nga kmi ra tx2, i know man jd d xa magtx2 ug lain.. tarung jd xa au. ako pasaway.. huhu. nya grabe ko makasulti ug masuko ko, k.bad jd naho... pero do you think love jd ko nya?

[pinkavaya]

i think so... i cant really tell though but if mag based lang ko sa imong ge sulti.. , for me, i think love ka niya..
ang pangutana.,,,.... IKAW, love pud nimo xa?

[angelkits]

sis, its better to talk man with him about that kay sa ingon ana lang mo permi... a talk could not hurt with the right words... assure him that whatever happens, xa ra jud imo loves! uyab pa baya mo, and he's thinking way much more than that... think of your limitations samtang mag-uyab pa mo...

And if he really loves you, he will understand... its better to tell the truth of what you really want and feel too...

and i agree with pinkavaya, ask yourself too kung love nimo xa... kung love nimo xa, then theres no problem in opening up d ba kaysa magtago2x ka dha...

[meimei16069]

i think so... i cant really tell though but if mag based lang ko sa imong ge sulti.. , for me, i think love ka niya..
ang pangutana.,,,.... IKAW, love pud nimo xa?

why nga nka think ka nga love ko nya? for additional infos, nag reject xa ug 5 jobs para lman mkauban nho ug skwela..

[meimei16069]

yes. yes. yes! i love him.

[meimei16069]

sis, its better to talk man with him about that kay sa ingon ana lang mo permi... a talk could not hurt with the right words... assure him that whatever happens, xa ra jud imo loves! uyab pa baya mo, and he's thinking way much more than that... think of your limitations samtang mag-uyab pa mo...

And if he really loves you, he will understand... its better to tell the truth of what you really want and feel too...

and i agree with pinkavaya, ask yourself too kung love nimo xa... kung love nimo xa, then theres no problem in opening up d ba kaysa magtago2x ka dha...

thank you kaau sa mga advice nn.u sis, yah. love jd nako xa. 2nd bf na nho.. 1st time nho makasud ug very serious relationship and i think mura nkalitan ko.. i didn't think nga maingani xa k.possessive tngd iya love nho.. k.understand man pd nuon ko.. d man xa magbuot nho, pero naa mn lgeh tay giingn nga "agree in a disagreeable manner".. ingana man iya attitude bsta naa xay d gnhn. gs2 mn gd ko ug msugot xa sa gusto nho buhaton, malipay sd xa.. d kai knang mapugos ra.. ako nuon, ug ako msugo niya or ngau favor, tuman nuon xa daun..