just think nga there will be people who will be in a worst condition like you. think about your blessings nlng instead of the curses that you feel that you are in...
ingun ani manpod akong na feel karon sa akong family. i think they would be better off without me. and me without them. our house (even if its kinda big) its not big enough for me and my mom. as much as possible i just lock myself in my room because i really dont want to see her. wenever magkita mi tanan nlng nga kasaba iya e balik2.maka pungot. im like a prisoner in our house. dili ko kalaag kai kasab-an ko. sa naman! 21 nagud ko hapit pero e hatod & kuha ko sa skul. ugh!!!! samok kaau ba... i really hate the situation that i am in. so many times ganahan nlng ko mu layas or something because the place that i call 'home' is 'hell'. if mu lakaw ko kasab-an napod ko kai asa kuno ko ad2...saunz! makalagot gyud oie!! wa nako kasabot..
what keeps me sane right now is the thought that somebody is waiting for me... my boyfriend... someday he will come get me...

i know it sounds so idealistic and perfect, almost too good to be true. but at least it keeps my sanity. i gues if i didnt have him or friends at least to comfort me i would have been suicidal already because its not easy to be me...