What was the last conversation you had with your loveone?

[gibra'al]

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after being hospitalized a few weeks ago (i could've been a goner kung wa nko nalihok dayon), it has dawned on me that i have to change some things in my life. and that includes breaking up with my partner of more than 2 years. we both know muabot ra ning higayuna given unsay setup nga naa mi, we just didn't know when is the right time. i felt it had to be done the moment i got discharged.

i just don't want to be a burden to anyone and he's better off with someone nga dli ako. he got annoyed that i always paint myself as a bad guy when i'm not daw by nature. that i'm just too guarded nga i put up a facade that only few people can get past through. he said we can make it work but i just don't want him to struggle along with me. he got frustrated ky gahi kog ulo. i laid him out the reasons to dump me, he didn't buy it. it was hard for both of us. labi na karon, the more i need him now nga i seek for emotional support somehow. but mas nilabaw lng sa akoa kung unsay angyang buhaton in the long run.

he asked me kung mag unsa mn dw ko once this is all done, i told him i'd be a recluse for quite a while for sure. he knows i'm comfortable with silence/being alone which isn't a surprise to him. i do felt his genuine concern sa ako, but i told him thoroughly why i've made the decision. i'm aware nga he did not agree sa uban nkong mga punto, but we both reached to a compromise. it's not like we've cut each other's communication in an instant sa karon. hopefully gradual, i don't want to leave him sa ere in a heartbeat. but i know it's bound to end soon.

[MollyMillions]

after being hospitalized a few weeks ago (i could've been a goner kung wa nko nalihok dayon), it has dawned on me that i have to change some things in my life. and that includes breaking up with my partner of more than 2 years. we both know muabot ra ning higayuna given unsay setup nga naa mi, we just didn't know when is the right time. i felt it had to be done the moment i got discharged.

i just don't want to be a burden to anyone and he's better off with someone nga dli ako. he got annoyed that i always paint myself as a bad guy when i'm not daw by nature. that i'm just too guarded nga i put up a facade that only few people can get past through. he said we can make it work but i just don't want him to struggle along with me. he got frustrated ky gahi kog ulo. i laid him out the reasons to dump me, he didn't buy it. it was hard for both of us. labi na karon, the more i need him now nga i seek for emotional support somehow. but mas nilabaw lng sa akoa kung unsay angyang buhaton in the long run.

he asked me kung mag unsa mn dw ko once this is all done, i told him i'd be a recluse for quite a while for sure. he knows i'm comfortable with silence/being alone which isn't a surprise to him. i do felt his genuine concern sa ako, but i told him thoroughly why i've made the decision. i'm aware nga he did not agree sa uban nkong mga punto, but we both reached to a compromise. it's not like we've cut each other's communication in an instant sa karon. hopefully gradual, i don't want to leave him sa ere in a heartbeat. but i know it's bound to end soon.

All the best! Being a recluse has benefits specially when one prefers it.

[gibra'al]

All the best! Being a recluse has benefits specially when one prefers it.

i've been technically a recluse even before mi ngkauyab (he was a close friend/confidant prior to it). i hv not posted sa akong FB for almost 5 years na gani. it's basically dead and have no plans to post anymore. i used to get invites sa mga kaila before, but most of the time i'd decline or muingon kog "next time nlng" until it reached to a point nga wala nay nangagda. i jst recently got another invite w/ ex-officemates human ko na discharge, but i used my current condition as an excuse pra d mka-apil. nisabot rman pud sila. but i promised nga mubawi ko nila. i'm just not ready to meet anyone i know at this point.

bottomline is, all of it was a conscious decision. i knew what to expect/repercussions sa akong mga choices. i just want to be on my own and fix my issues as it has been my process of recuperating. it takes a lot of time for me to heal...months, years, even more than a decade. i'm okay with being alone, dli man ko mag maoy kung ako ra isa. ganahan rko mag kuri2 nga ako ra isa, labi na sa gabii/kdlawn maglakaw2 rko kung wla na kaayoy taw. i feel at ease/more calm when i'm in it. murag panabla sa akong huna2 nga magsig dagan pirmi. dghan kog gi.huna2.

[sandy2007]

..if it's okay, i'd like to keep it as a remembrance..

[gretta]

no. i just left

[bUrbY_dUll]

Followuping on their food if it can atill suffice to their need

[pampamela]

Wala akong loveone. hahahha! Hindi kona matandaan sa tagal

[bUrbY_dUll]

Talked bout their food supply that i had to send them money coz they're running out of it