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Chartreuse
Hi istoryans!!!
Actually dugay na ko nga nag browse browse diri but karon lang ko nakakuha ug time to sign-up. To be honest nag sign up ra ko to share my story... Actually mauwaw ko i share because it concerns a person I respect most. Last 2006, I have been very active sa amo parish (somewhere in Mindanao). Me and my (x) boyfriend were very active sa choir ug youth org sa simbahan since high school.
Until last 2008 naay gi assign na bagong assistant parish priest sa amua. Let's call him Father X. Didto na ni start ang tanan kay na infatuate ko ug maayo niya. He was 32 years old then, ug 2 years pa cya nag pari. I was 24 ug nag work ko sa amo municipal hall at that time.
I would describe him as very handsome, as in gwapo jud..,deadringer ni Christian Vasquez nga artista, but shorter lang gamay. Unlke my bf, mas na turn on ko niya kay very athletic and masculine. He came from Luzon and is a member of a well-known religious order. Buotan pa jud kaayo and very accommodating and I learned a lot from him since he also conducts catechism. Since medyo oldie na and busy amo parish priest, he was assigned to offer Mass every Friday at 5:PM. 6PM man mo start ang practice sa choir and so I tried na maka attend ko ug Mass.
He would sometimes stay with the choir practice, and would make sure that we had dinner or snack at least before we go home. One year after, na close na nako cya but I hate to admit mas stronger akong feeling para niya -- even if my boyfriend was with us. He did not make any advances towards anybody and he was a very decent man. Wala ra nagduda ako boyfried since kuyog man nako ang other choir members. Usually ang mga sakristan man ang mohatud namo sa amo haus if walay available nga transpo especially if its night or raining.
ONE YEAR AFTER, 2007...
One night, only 4 of us were left after the choir practice, and at that time wala nitunga ang sakristan na mohatud namo kay na busy sa skul ug ang usa kay niuli sa ilaha. Ni volunteer siya na cya na lang daw mohatud namo, since mga 8:30 naman to and its getting dark. Ngadto mi tanan sa luyo (open part) sa pickup truck while cya ra ang naa sa sulod. Since ako ang pinaka layo, nibalhin ko sa front seat after the 3 others left.
Storya storya mi and he fell silent while driving ... While he was driving slowly I leaned over and kissed him. He responded and we kissed for about 20 seconds -- which was intense and passionate. I know dili cya stranger sa kiss since he had 2 serious girlfriends before he became a priest. To admit he kissed me way much better than my boyfriend. Then he stopped, because maybe he realized we are doing something wrong.
After that, murag wala ra man sa iya and we still talked about other things until niabot mi sa amo. I texted him to say thank you but he did not reply. Anyway, Sunday that week naka sense ko na something changed in him. He only joined the choir for a few minutes to say thanks and to invite us for breakfast We did not talk like we used to. He was civil but he did not mingle with us, dili pareho sa una. Same thing ang nahitabo with the succeeding choir practice. We still see each other but we never discussed or talked what happened that night, and if naa cya, that is to check if we are OK but never hang out with us until the end of our practice. After that nagmahay pud ko gamay because it affected our friendship in some way.
Anyway, I confessed to my boyfriend about it, and of course nalain jud cya ato. That was one of the factors nga nibuwag mi, and it was all my fault. I moved to Cebu in 2008 to work and to forget everything kay 2008 was a very painful year for me. I lost contact with my friends back home and also with him kay na busy na ko sa work diri.
FORWARD TO 2013.........
I added him as a friend in FB last year but dugay dugay sad niya gi accept akong invitation, after 2 months pa. I admit stalking him but since dili man cya tig FB. He only uses FB to post announcements for chuch activities, but not really for personal use. I PM'd him and he only replied politely. He is now assigned in Manila but I hope to keep in touch with him, at least as friends. I have a new boyfriend now, but wala pud cya kahibaw ani. Only my ex and one of my friends knew what happened.
Wala man ko nag expect ug something sa iya, but lisod kaayo kay murag natunga akong loyalty sa akong new BF ug sa iya. I know he is very dedicated to the church. But unfair pud sa akong new bf kay dili ko ka get over sa akong feelings or the priest after 7 years, although wala mi nagka uyab. I dont want to distract him from his vocation. Hahay, mura og na priso ko sa akong feelings kay pirme jud ko makahuna huna nya. I want to get over it but naglisod pa ko. Until now, heartbroken ko in some way, although dili jud dapat kay naa na ko bag ong uyab. My friends say mabe im so obsessed, but what i want to do now is to get over him and everything.
Mao ra mga friends... Pacnxa lang dili kaau nindot ang pagka-suwat sa story. that's all....
getting over it....
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