I can totally relate to this... mine is worst... I have suicidal ideation already, because I was scared of doing it... I opened my problems and fears w/ my parents... no matter how ashamed I was... and it did help... I'm now resigning co's my work was one of the reason of my increasing depression and I hate it... now I felt more relieved and looking for other good possibilities and opportunities that fit to my interest. Life goes on... It's never too late...