wow, more or less same2 ta ug situation. 32months of being together then suddenly someone would pop out and ruin what u have. tsk.
but like what my sister told me "maibog manjud na ang tao bisag minyo, normal ra na. but u have the choice to either magpada or istop. u always have a choice" guess its u'r ex's fault as well.
hmm i was like u pud, i did everything to save the relationship *even if i'm the girl". i begged him to stay, but he didnt. i asked him if he has other girl but he denied. i really blamed myself for the break up. but later on i found out that he really has this OTHER GIRL. instead of feeling pity to myself i was thankful i found it out, cause atlast i have enough reason to let him go.
the nice thing was I know in myself that I did everything to save us so i don't feel any regrets of us not working out.
Same with u TS, u have given enough to save the relationship so stop doing anything else for the same reason. All you have to do is wait for her decision. But you also have to think of yourself. Obviously, u have that HOPE of you getting back together, u dont have to let go of that. However, you should start moving on. If she comes back then it'll be nice, but if not atleast ur already starting to fix urself. atleast it wont hurt that much.
believe me, iv been to your situation, that time if i had a choice between dying and living i'll really choose the first, but i realized that there's more to life than having boyfriends/girlfriends.
hmmm, u also have to pray TS, it'll surely help. Talk to God. He will surely help you ease the pain.
Embrace the pain and learn from it. be brave
