All along, I’ve been lying to myself. I’ve been pretentious – pretending that I’m all over him. I know for a fact that I don’t want to ruin his present relationship. Not to mention, it was the same girl after me. It has been more than 5 years, yet its still fresh for me. Here I am, missing him again! Pathetic, I know! But I can’t help it. No matter how I try to keep myself busy, as I pause, he’s all I’m thinking of. I feel stranded. Every man who comes near or would even try to knock on my door ends up being shut down. I never had any decent relationship after him because I keep on comparing them to him. I need to stop this before it eats me up.
Anyone felt this way?