LeeLeePot
i don't know
by , 06-08-2011 at 03:52 AM (3588 Views)
if you ask me if i'm already okay,
the answer is, "i don't know."
if you ask me if i'm fine with the present,
the answer is, "to hell you go!"
if you ask me if i'm coping up,
then tell me what you see.
if you ask me to pretend that i don't know you,
then you must've lost your sanity.
if you ask me if i can let you go,
just look at my middle finger, honey.
if you ask me why it's hard to do,
well, our five years isn't just a fantasy!
if you ask me what i'm thinking in my silence,
then tell me what you see in my eyes
if you ask me to stop asking you questions
then please don't answer me with lies!
if you ask me if i can wait for you
the answer is "definitely! i will!"
if you ask me why i'd do that for,
the answer is "i love you still."
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yesterday, insanity must've clouded my normal judgment and i decided to write all over the walls of our apartment. He was gone all day and we've been avoiding each other like total strangers. As much as possible, I try not to see him so as to give him the space he is asking while we are still living under the same roof. But those hours when I don't see him, memories of us being happy on that same space before caused a nostalgic storm and I don't see any available paper to write it on. so i wrote it on the walls. i hope my landlord understands. and that day seemed to get worse when a neighbor turned on the videoke and sang out his heart to "I'm all out of love, i'm so lost without you..." and my voice started to quiver. my vision blurs. gaah! someday, everything would fall into place. someday, i know these tears would find its worth. i wish someday would be tomorrow. or atleast before i fill the walls of the room with my emo-ish angst on love and the wasted five years.
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