Perceptions and Actions

The first time I saw your glance
Not much that I can muster
It was just an ordinary day
Nothing special, nothing changed anew

The days have gone by
Slow but sure interactions paving the way
Keeping myself on the balance
Not forgetting my manners

Weeks came so fast
Steadying to face your allure
Put all of my plans into action
Paved out so well

Months came in a speed of light
So as ...

When you are together with that special someone, you pretend to ignore that person.
But when that special someone is not around, you might look around to find them.
At that moment, you are in love.



Although there is someone else who always makes you laugh,
your eyes and attention might go only to that special someone.
Then, you are in love.


Although that special someone was supposed to have called you long back, to let you know ...

My heart longs for happiness
It has buried me in deep sadness
Longing myself to regain it

My heart longs for security
For it has been shattered and molded
But still a fragile instrument

My heart longs for love
Countless times have I shared to others
But ended myself in grief

My heart longs for confidence
Long have I pursued that lifelong dream
Yet reality hurts even more

My heart longs for realization ...

In our words we utter exceptional intonations
In our minds we expand intellect beyond measure
In our actions we iterate symbols of anonymity
In our perceptions we foresaw the inevitable


Nothing is ascertain to utter words
For it needs time to rekindle our minds
And our actions would lay waste to retribution
Would our perceptions delude our entire sanity


Decisions are steadfast and a prey for the foolhardy
Philosophy ...

So many things in my mind, so little time for it to take it all away..
Some things aren't meant to be ours forever, some aren't there to be revealed..
Some can't comprehend it, while others underestimated it..
Everything is uncertain..

As we kept imagining ourselves the inevitable of tomorrow..
It's nothing more than a fragment, a hallucination or sorrow..

Thoughts and things as it would seem..
It will only fall just an ordinary dream.. ...

I should have known..
I should have listened to my instincts..
But now it's too late to turn back..
It is now a scar of what my heart can hold..
Why am I doing this??


I couldn't understand it..
I somehow don't know what to do..
I'm afraid that if I'll spit out the truth..
It will ruin our relationship..


I have to make fabrications to cover up the pain..
But somehow I can no longer bear the burden of covering ...

For long months, it has been quite a bumpy ride towards keeping my cool and temperament. But one thing is for sure, I'm going back to my old self again..

6 months was quite a bit long, and a struggling road. I could not regret that keeping my temperament wasn't that quite exhilarating, but it can prove to be terrifying once it cannot be contained anymore. Maybe I was kinda too harsh at confronting people, or kinda intimidating them at first glance. I think its about time ...