Depression/Suicide survivor support group

[haidee_08]

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i have been diagnosed with major depressive disorder 10 months ago and i had to quit med school because people started to talk and i got confused and scared..i went home in cebu 7 months ago and i decided to shut myself rather than tell anybody else because i would not want my family to be dragged into this....i dont know what i should call it it but im having a relapse..i stopped my medication and therapy went i went home and now i think i need it again because ive been doing all these crazy things again..i wanted to go back to school this june and im scared that if i seek treatment now it might blow my chances in getting accepted in a decent school here in cebu...

at a young age age i knew i was different because of the experiences that i had...it was not until 10 months ago that all the things that i kept inside of me began to show because i was in a new environment and the new environment made me feel a new person to the point that it challenged me to ask myself who i really was ...its true that committing suicide is a result when people cant cope with what their dealing whether it be a problem, stressed or confusion in life...but ive committed suicide more than once enough for me to know that before a person reaches with the decision of doing such an act, we do try to deal with it...we are aware that there could be other solutions but then with my personal experience i choose to do it not because i wanted to stop the pain or the emptiness but i did it because rather than hurting other people emotionally ending my life would have been a better option...my scars are there to remind me that i should be stronger but when your emotionally and mentally unstable your logic goes down the drain....

i had three psychiatrists when i was in iloilo...i first went to our school psychiatrist and we had therapy but when she knew that i was a CUTTER i was referred to a child psychiatrist because of my symptoms...i also saw a psychiatrst that specialized with abused women...it really does make a difference it we are in therapy and when we are on proper medication...

i changed my medication four times before we found an anti depressant that perfectly worked well for me...anti depressants dont work like magic that if you drink it once you would instantly feel happy butbase on my experience i took if for 5 days before i felt the effect...

my psychiatrist have been begging me to see a psychiatrist here in cebu since i am still not well...and since my symptoms are getting worst i think i need to find one asap this week...they suggested lots of good doctors but DR. pureza onate was their top suggesting because she has been in this field for forty years now...so if any of you happen to have her number please text me so that i can see her asap...09228643401...if you also need someone to talk to or ask about these things i will try my best to help you...

PS... to people who think that suicide is not a serious matter...think twice...no...think many times...dont wait for someone important to die before you take this matters seriously...i have lost friends in my old support group before....

[lifeisunfair]

Murag angay ni himoan ug grupo kai importante ni na problem.

What is a depression? What is the purpose of this thread?
Are you willing to listen & believe the sad story of my life?
or Are you just like watching me dying alone?

[kelv]

maybe create a group for depressed people. supporting each other because the support coming from the family and friends are not enough.

[porbidaman]

I'd read an article before that lifting weights, walking or running can help fight against depression.

[manters2000]

I'd read an article before that lifting weights, walking or running can help fight against depression.

I agree with this. I've experienced this before katong bag-o ka nawad-an og trabaho then jobless for 4 months, what I did is I do exercises(lifting weights, jump rope) para mogaan ang paminaw og puro positive ang emong sulod sa huna2.

[lifeisunfair]

I lost my family few years ago,its not my fault bt my wife betrayed me to another guy...after 1 yr I lost my job...got another work but 3yrs after the company is closing the business...now my son is not interested to see me anymore...
now I live alone...no one interested to befriend me anymore, not like before when I still have money to make them happy.
Im tryd going to quite places where I can stay watching sundown alone.
I ask:
is my life still worth-living?
what for?
am not happy with my life anymore...
If Im gone who will care?
or is this the right time to start writing a goodbye letter?

[kelv]

I lost my family few years ago,its not my fault bt my wife betrayed me to another guy...after 1 yr I lost my job...got another work but 3yrs after the company is closing the business...now my son is not interested to see me anymore...
now I live alone...no one interested to befriend me anymore, not like before when I still have money to make them happy.
Im tryd going to quite places where I can stay watching sundown alone.
I ask:
is my life still worth-living?
what for?
am not happy with my life anymore...
If Im gone who will care?
or is this the right time to start writing a goodbye letter?

naa pa kay chance mkakita ug lain asawa ug trabaho bai. why dont u try to work in call center? mura maau mn ka mo english. mka uyab pkag katrabaho nmo ddto. then maminyo ug start a new family.

niagi pd kog depression. dili pko 100% recovered jud pero mayna lng at least ni OK gamay.

ingna nya ko f u feel alone. ato nang tagayan. exercise pd mkatabang na nmo na ma good mood ka.

[porbidaman]

I lost my family few years ago,its not my fault bt my wife betrayed me to another guy...after 1 yr I lost my job...got another work but 3yrs after the company is closing the business...now my son is not interested to see me anymore...
now I live alone...no one interested to befriend me anymore, not like before when I still have money to make them happy.
Im tryd going to quite places where I can stay watching sundown alone.
I ask:
is my life still worth-living?
what for?
am not happy with my life anymore...
If Im gone who will care?
or is this the right time to start writing a goodbye letter?

Did you write your heartaches, problems and possible solutions migo?
How To Deal With Anxiety, Tragedy Or Heartache - 4 Steps From Research

[illidan_great]

I lost my family few years ago,its not my fault bt my wife betrayed me to another guy...after 1 yr I lost my job...got another work but 3yrs after the company is closing the business...now my son is not interested to see me anymore...
now I live alone...no one interested to befriend me anymore, not like before when I still have money to make them happy.
Im tryd going to quite places where I can stay watching sundown alone.
I ask:
is my life still worth-living?
what for?
am not happy with my life anymore...
If Im gone who will care?
or is this the right time to start writing a goodbye letter?

try keeping a diary, do some activities.

right now, mao na akong action plan. depression added with anxiety is the worst feeling

[mustardplaster]

maybe create a group for depressed people. supporting each other because the support coming from the family and friends are not enough.

mayta naa. mayta sad kanang seryoso gyud ba.