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straight from the heart...

to the woman who have my baby's daddy

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by , 06-23-2014 at 05:57 AM (2287 Views)
it's weekend.no work.i cant sleep at this wee hour coz i am now used to being awake at night.as i watch my son sleeping,i cant help but pity him.he is just 2.he cant speak well yet.he cant even say "mommy"..he calls me "dadi" or sometimes 'adi',short for dadi.hearing him call me dadi actually breaks my heart.it is a sad truth that he'll never have his dadi.how am i going to explain to him someday where his dadi is?how am i going to tell him that his dadi left us?how am i going to explain what happened?
there are a thousand thoughts running in my mind right now.what if's and what could have been's.i know you both are living a very comfortable life.you dont know or even have the slightest idea how i struggled to make both ends meet.you dont know what sacrifices i have to make to provide for my son,to be able to buy him milk and especially his meds.
we are living a very different life.as you are enjoying the luxuries of life,we have to be contented with what we have.while you have everything,we are struggling.of course you wont understand that.you refused to understand when i begged you not to take his dad away from us.you wont understand everything ive gone through because youve never been in one of it.
i heard,you already have a baby.how was the experience?youre lucky he was there with you.did you know that i labored for two nights and nobody was there to hold me and comfort me?it is supposed to be a happy memory but no,hell no.how can it be happy when just 3 hours after delivery,he bid his farewell just so he can be with you finally?have you ever experienced crying while looking at him packing his things and you can do nothing because you are too weak?have you ever experienced bringing your child in the emergency?and when you tried to reach for his dad for help,he shunned you away?
i dont wish bad things for you.ive moved on,but the pain is still here,stabbing me everytime my son calls me 'adi'.i wish you all the luck in your family life.i wish that you will not experience even 5% of what ive gone through.i wish he'll be a good dad to your baby.i wish he'll be a good husband to you.i wish he will not do to you what he did to me.
as for me and my son,we will survive,we always do.we did when he left us to be with you.we did when you took him away.we did in difficult situations.and there's no reason why we cant in the future.i dont envy you,or your luxurious life.because while god gave you the best slice of cake,He is teaching us how to bake.
Wynna, wetkiss, raissah and 11 others like this.
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  1. cyber's Avatar
    I like the last line! Stay strong girl!
  2. wetkiss's Avatar
    I feel you!
    bula1980 likes this.
  3. Mald|3Ta's Avatar
    nya unsa man magtagay ta para ani? Wa kaau ta ka chika kato nagkuyog ta pero kahilakon na ko nagbasa ani....same ra jud ta kaahi sa? Tsk tsk pero payts ra

    Go lang ng go!
    bula1980 likes this.
  4. jyanmperez's Avatar
    God hears you....just pray...
    bula1980 likes this.
  5. 30121895's Avatar
    ..sakita ane ue
    bula1980 likes this.
  6. jed_daves712's Avatar
    now i know how it feels!!..
    i was so numb for what she really feels...
    now as i read your blog..
    i just realized what have i done!!..
    bula1980 likes this.
  7. marius's Avatar
    hala ka diha, laina basahun sa middle part ani oi. bagaa ug nawong sa lalaki, gibayaan ka while bago nanganak. unsa naman intawn na na klase na tao ...

    cge lang ... naa bitaw imong baby, mao ra gyud na source sa imong strength ug super-powers as a mother ....
    bula1980 likes this.
  8. zyrhc's Avatar
    have faith, let that irresponsible dad burn his soul in hell!!
  9. femchien's Avatar
    nice one ! nakakatouch .. Im so blessed we're complete eventhough we dont have lots of money .. )
    Ashie likes this.
  10. zach0529's Avatar
    tsk tsk kani jung mga lalaki, haha

    btaw, naa ko friend same jud mo story, pero life goes on, bahala na lakiha,, kta pa ka laki na mas worthy tawagon og papa sa imo baby
    bula1980 likes this.
  11. kentoy0224's Avatar
    “Above all, be the heroine of your life, not the victim.”

    you know where you stand Wen. and you have both feet firmly on the ground. you won't buckle. you won't sway. raise your hands. receive the world. this is nothing. you got this.
    bula1980 likes this.
  12. bula1980's Avatar
    Quote Originally Posted by kentoy0224
    “Above all, be the heroine of your life, not the victim.”

    you know where you stand Wen. and you have both feet firmly on the ground. you won't buckle. you won't sway. raise your hands. receive the world. this is nothing. you got this.
    ken,youve been so supportive of me,thank you so much..God bless!
    kentoy0224 likes this.
  13. trixieirmz's Avatar
    Quote Originally Posted by jed_daves712
    now i know how it feels!!..
    i was so numb for what she really feels...
    now as i read your blog..
    i just realized what have i done!!..
    basin ikaw tong laki. ahaha JK.
  14. raissah's Avatar
    This girl!! Gipahilak jud ko nimo dres office. Haha Hurot na tanang bilib nako nimo, Bula. Grabeha ka strong nimo. We love you, Bula.
    bula1980 likes this.
  15. bula1980's Avatar
    Quote Originally Posted by raissah
    This girl!! Gipahilak jud ko nimo dres office. Haha Hurot na tanang bilib nako nimo, Bula. Grabeha ka strong nimo. We love you, Bula.

    Love you too rairaiken...

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