https://www.istorya.net/forums/blog.php?182855-Little_Mermaid88 en Wed, 20 May 2026 22:54:41 GMT vBulletin 300 https://www.istorya.net/forums/images/metro/blue/misc/rss.jpg https://www.istorya.net/forums/blog.php?182855-Little_Mermaid88 https://www.istorya.net/forums/entry.php?2880-How-do-i-forget-thee Fri, 08 Sep 2017 17:38:06 GMT since I can't sleep and Ed Sheeran's song is urging me to write about how messed up this is.


so how do I forget thee?
when you still make my heart flutter everytime u call me with that special nickname,
when u say things that make me hope?

everyday I talk to myself and say that im stronger than my attraction to you. and everyday I fail. because every-f*ckin-time u make me fall harder.

so how do I forget thee?
when everytime I'm alone I think about you?
when I sing songs, I sing them for you
when I stumble into something interesting, I'd think about how you'd like it too.

talking to you is a constant struggle since I'm trying to be this friend that u want but then wanting u to know that what you're doing is hurting me badly.

As what Ed Sheeran said on one of his songs,
"I've been known to give my all, sitting back and looking at the mess that I've made"

:-(
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Wv2rLZmbPMA ]]> Little_Mermaid88 https://www.istorya.net/forums/entry.php?2880-How-do-i-forget-thee https://www.istorya.net/forums/entry.php?2840-Dayuhan Mon, 20 Feb 2017 10:59:42 GMT before i clock out today, i'll share with you one of my favorite poet's masterpieces, it encompasses mostly what i feel for this person that i can never seem to let go.

in time...

Dayuhan

Natapos ang lahat
Niyakap kita at sinabing “kidlat”
Alam ko ako ay kulog
At pilit man kitang habulin hindi tayo mag-aabot
Tumawa ka lang, hindi pinansin ang mga palad kong naninigas sa pagmamakaaawa
Ang mga labing pinapula ko lamang sa pag-asang ako ay iyong mahahalikan
Tumawa ka lang ng subukan kitang kalimutan
Sinanay ang sarili sa lamig, sa “hindi”
Sinaulo ang bawat liko sa hindi mo sa’kin pagpili
Ang bawat lubak na pabago bago mong isipan
Kabisado ko ang daan,
Ilang beses kong tinahak,
Ilang beses ginawang hele ang dahan dahang pagbitak ng sarili kong puso
Ilang beses nalunod sa karagatan ng “ako nalang”.
Ilang beses sumuko, sinabing huli na, hindi na mauuulit.
Ilang beses bumalik, sanay ako sa lamig pero naaalala ko pa rin ang init.
Ang uri ng pag-ibig na sumasabog sa paloob
Ang ugong na nag uuunahan nating mga puso
Ang mga tibok na bagong pag-aalay
Ang bawat haplos ay pagsamo
Natuto ang mga palad kong bumukas ng kusa
Bigay. Bitaw.
At hindi pa rin malinaw paaano ang lahat ay naging hindi sapat
Hindi ba’t sabi mo ako ang tanging kailangan,
ang kanlungan ng mga multong hindi na kayang mahalin
Naaalala ko ang mga gabing hindi ako makatulog
Ang aking puso dahan-dahang gumagapang paakyat ng ‘yong kama
Na nagpupumilit sumiksik sa pagitan niyong dalawa
Alam ba niya ang mga kantang paulit-ulit mong pinapakinggan sa t’wing nagwawala ang tinatago mong dilim
Alam ba niya na sa akin ka lumalapit para ilibing ang mga bahagi na ayaw niyang tanggapin
Alam niya ba na pag kayo’y magkayakap,
mundo ko ang kanyang hawak?
Lahat ng pinangarap ko para sa atin,
Sinubukan kitang kalimutan,
pero ang hirap tanggapin ng pagiging dayuhan ng isang katawan na dati ay tinawag kong akin
Sinubukan kitang kalimutan,
Sinusubukan kitang kalimutan,
At siguro hanggang subok nalang ako.”

-Louise Meets ]]> Little_Mermaid88 https://www.istorya.net/forums/entry.php?2840-Dayuhan https://www.istorya.net/forums/entry.php?2692-one-day Tue, 24 May 2016 03:14:24 GMT One day, you’ll remember the girl who loved you so much that she forgot to love herself.You’ll remember her when you wake up, when you eat, when you’re about to sleep. She will be your greatest nightmare. You will be the one crying, and she will be the one happy with someone else.

One day, you’ll regret losing her. You lost the girl who did everything for you. You lost the girl who was always there for you when no one else is. You lost her because of your ego. You lost the girl who stayed by your side even if you threw harsh words to her. You lost the girl who tried to understand you when she needed you and you were not there.

One day, you’ll realize that she was the one for you. The girl who stood by your side even if you don’t appreciate her. One day, you’ll realize that the girl you screwed up was the girl who kept on fighting and defending you when she hears gossips about you.
One day, you’ll see her happy and contented with the life she has. She will thank you for making her realize she is worth of something so much better, that there is someone out there who is willing to do everything for her. She will look into your eyes with no feelings for you at all.

One day, when you see her, you will feel like you’ve been stabbed in your heart a millions times for giving up on her. And when that day comes, no matter what you do, no matter what you say to her, it will not make sense because she was already done spending years of her life trying to make you love her as she loved you. But you didn’t.

One day she'll be over you.She will never turn her back again to pick you up from your shit.She will be your greatest regret. She stood by you and never let you down but there are times when she's helpless and weak,you just left her with nothing. Girls are better and stronger when broken,you'll see her with someone else,someone who treat her right and loves her for every single strands of her hair. You will be nothing but just a chapter of her book. ]]> Little_Mermaid88 https://www.istorya.net/forums/entry.php?2692-one-day https://www.istorya.net/forums/entry.php?2652-Promises Sun, 24 Apr 2016 23:44:10 GMT You were just another guy who was bored with life and then you met me
And then all of a sudden we made plans together --- to travel, to meet each other's parents, to work things out even if we're far away from each other.

I promised myself that I wouldn't fall in love with you.
But it was 4am, and we were laughing way too hard and I felt so happy for the first time in a long time,

..and then I knew I was screwed.

But then I found out you used me for some sick martyr thing you like to play.
And now I want to hate you.

I still couldn't shake this feeling off
I want to see you
I want to hug you and tell you I missed you.


But then, you were never mine in the first place. ]]> Little_Mermaid88 https://www.istorya.net/forums/entry.php?2652-Promises https://www.istorya.net/forums/entry.php?2514-Hanging Mon, 31 Aug 2015 13:56:52 GMT it sucks when you don't know where you stand in a person's life, knowing you can be thrown off anytime.

when you're like more than friends but not really, or when you're like lovers when it's not otherwise..

to treat someone as ordinary, when in fact he is very special.
to keep calm, though you're obviously jealous.
to smile even in deep pain. ]]> Little_Mermaid88 https://www.istorya.net/forums/entry.php?2514-Hanging https://www.istorya.net/forums/entry.php?2497-Seriously-%21 Wed, 27 May 2015 05:16:56 GMT

u only like girls who don't take you seriously. kung tarongon ka, di ka ganahan.

nya kai nagtarong man ko nimo. ayaw ko ingna kai ni-ingon imong mama nga mas maayo pako kaysa imong ex, balik rapud ka dayon?

did you ever stop and think about what happened after u ruined my life?!

it took a lot of time and a lot of messed-up situations to get to my peace of mind right now.
obviously i didn't make u happy kung ingon-ato rko nimo kasayon gi-treat




so why come back? it's pointless


nya kung mapul-an napud ka, you'd bail? i would have thought nga ng-mature naka. nga di naka ganahan mopasakit ug taw since naka-agi ka nga masakitan. i was wrong.

so please don't ever plead with me to take you back.


pag-urong! ]]> Little_Mermaid88 https://www.istorya.net/forums/entry.php?2497-Seriously-%21 https://www.istorya.net/forums/entry.php?2485-disoriented Tue, 12 May 2015 10:56:38 GMT i wanna believe that you're this perfect guy and everything you seem to be is true.
but when i look at you, really look at you, i can tell that i'm just barely scratching the surface.
you're that book, with the pretty cover, the one that i just can't wait to get into. but you should never judge a book by its cover, because now that i've read far enough into you that i just can't put you down, there will be a twist... and everything will change... and by the last page, i'll be heartbroken. ]]> Little_Mermaid88 https://www.istorya.net/forums/entry.php?2485-disoriented https://www.istorya.net/forums/entry.php?2458-Jealousy Mon, 26 Jan 2015 11:11:58 GMT Nobody said jealousy was pretty.
It is downright disgusting.

Saw u yesterday.
eyes shining brightly, smiling so radiantly.
it made me think of cakes, halo2x, long walks on the beach ----- things that i know you love.

and then i saw her with you.
my steps faltered, my thoughts dimmed.
you saw me, and yelled out my name.

the corners of my mouth tremble as i attempted to smile at you.
only managed a feeble "hi".
realizing that faking happiness is completely out of the realm of reality, i let my frown win.

I walked away quickly, not wanting you to see how each seam of my fragile sanity is unraveling one excruciating thread at a time in rapid succession.

this isn't what i envisioned seeing you.
it was like literally stabbing my heart, shredding it to pieces.
Nothing.
Nobody.
Anybody couldn't take this pain away. ]]> Little_Mermaid88 https://www.istorya.net/forums/entry.php?2458-Jealousy https://www.istorya.net/forums/entry.php?2449-White-Lies Wed, 17 Dec 2014 13:34:44 GMT you ever had that experience wherein you learned that your best friend is keeping something from you?

well, it happened to me today.

i was not hurt when i learned her secret.
i was deeply hurt to know that she did not trust me enough to share that to me.

we have been friends for a long time and i've already proved that i could accept whatever she was.
it just wasn't easy to accept that i was being lied to.

it made me question how good of a friend was i to her for her to make the decision not to tell me.

the disappointment and sadness that im feeling right now is alien to me.
don't know what to do. ]]> Little_Mermaid88 https://www.istorya.net/forums/entry.php?2449-White-Lies https://www.istorya.net/forums/entry.php?2441-oversight Mon, 08 Dec 2014 14:20:53 GMT there's always that one person whom you think about everyday.

we met. we talked.
that's all we had and nothing else.

i wished that it would be you,
but it was just an illusion, and now i know better.

i don't like forcing things.
if you're not for me, why should i change you?

sure, it's the same stuff i say to myself over and over again.
but one day, you'll disappear from my mind and i won't have time to think about you anymore. ]]> Little_Mermaid88 https://www.istorya.net/forums/entry.php?2441-oversight https://www.istorya.net/forums/entry.php?2432-You-May-Never-Know Tue, 02 Dec 2014 07:57:27 GMT Do you think of me, when you least expect it?
like when you're cooking or watching a television show or you're with your friends?
DO you find yourself sifting through the memories of what we
shared?

I know as long as you are happy, i can go through with my life.
But, it still kills me to see you happy without me,
because i know she deserves you more than i do.

When i think of you now, it's bittersweet.
I'm probably half-insane for still wishing you would be mine.
Everyday lies before me --- empty, with only myself to keep myself company.

You don't know. You will never know.
Perhaps you may never know. ]]> Little_Mermaid88 https://www.istorya.net/forums/entry.php?2432-You-May-Never-Know https://www.istorya.net/forums/entry.php?2414-isolated Mon, 20 Oct 2014 12:24:12 GMT so lonely in this bottomless darkness if i have no heart, then why do i feel such anguish? what is it that threatens to break inside me? this murky road is haunted it extends to infinity in all directions, yet it is confining as a coffin.. i yearn for the light... Lost. so lonely in this bottomless darkness
if i have no heart, then why do i feel such anguish?
what is it that threatens to break inside me?

this murky road is haunted
it extends to infinity in all directions,
yet it is confining as a coffin..

i yearn for the light...
Lost. ]]> Little_Mermaid88 https://www.istorya.net/forums/entry.php?2414-isolated https://www.istorya.net/forums/entry.php?2400-im-fine Tue, 19 Aug 2014 12:41:41 GMT i'm not heartbroken and i still haven't shed a single tear over the entire situation. i've never owned you, you've never recognized my feelings either.

i can't be heartbroken because luckily, i had yet to give you a part of me. but, i'm not too proud to admit that i am a little bit sad about it all, and i know it'll take time because i really, really liked you.

so, i'm fine. i'm a little sad, and a whole lot confused about your actions, but i'm fine. ]]> Little_Mermaid88 https://www.istorya.net/forums/entry.php?2400-im-fine https://www.istorya.net/forums/entry.php?2368-Missing-Mikey Tue, 10 Jun 2014 13:18:37 GMT i miss you


when you love someone, they're a part of you.

it's like you're attached by this invisible thread and no matter how far away you are, you could always feel them.

and now every time i reach for that thread, i know there's no one on the other end.. and i feel like im falling into nothingness..

then i remember..
i remember the way you laugh, the way you make fun of me, the way you mimic what i say..


i miss you so much, it feels like a piece of me has been ripped off..

just one more time i wanna hold you.. 10 more seconds is that too much to ask?



but i cant... and i wont... and the only thing keeping me from being swallowed whole by sadness is that you would kill me if i did..



so for now, im just gonna miss you.. ]]> Little_Mermaid88 https://www.istorya.net/forums/entry.php?2368-Missing-Mikey https://www.istorya.net/forums/entry.php?2358-My-Mere-Illusion Tue, 06 May 2014 22:26:16 GMT Being with someone who makes you feel that there is no tomorrow, and wanting to stop the world from moving. For you wish that you could hold the clock that you and him were together. to embrace the sweetest moment with so much gladness for being with him. Binding your hand in his and how happy you are that it fits well... It's just like the movies! then I realize it's too good to be true. The pictures in front of me is fading. " No! Stop!, "I cried. But there is nothing I can do. You're just a mere illusion built in my dream. A fantasy that appears only when I'm asleep. But yes you are real, but never would I hold you in my arms. Bumped by the walls that makes the truth bitter. Then I make believe, you are my prince abducted by the so called enigma. Its my battle to survive in the struggle against all who is in our way. But will I win? When in reality you never felt I exist. I live in a world where you are a myth. A quest to make your princess regardless what world we live in... ]]> Little_Mermaid88 https://www.istorya.net/forums/entry.php?2358-My-Mere-Illusion