LeeLeePot

as a woman that came from ancestors with exquisite taste toward dealing with society, i am expecting my dates and my men to have ethics and poise however, the man i fell head-to-toe inlove with didn't come at par...but what the hell?!

- he scratches his crotch even in my presence and smells his hands after.
- he farts in my face
- he takes me to fastfood chains when we date. he even proposed to me at a fastfood chain! he only took me once in a fine dining resto and that ...

August!!! August!! August!!! It's my birthday month! i wonder what's in store for me this month? I hope it's something that would make me smile.

It never fails to occur to me a passing thought that it's always in August that I'm having a hard time balancing my finances that i end up celebrating my birthday with only a penny in my pocket--good enough to buy a single candle to light up and offer to the saints and to God. It also happens that it rains on my birthday. I take it as God's ...

i just slept and i woke up with an aching ear....


and my eyes are itchy too...


and i am scared of doctors!

if you can't look at me with that familiar stare you give me before;
if you can't live up to my whining more and more;
if you can't take it any longer and you just want to walk out that door;
let's have a wrap up before our hearts get sore.

if you can't seem to remember how it felt when we first met;
when the pain i have caused you is just too hard to forget;
when forgiving me takes up a revenge that you won't regret;
then let's end this tale before ...

HE WAS

He was my home but then he left me.
Now, there's nowhere that I will ever be.
He was my pet and I was his queen.
Now, I'm just a part of what he had been.
He was my partner and he was my life.
He even screamed to the whole world that I was his wife.
He was my playmate, the only joy in my pain--
That when he broke my heart, i knew i'd be insane!
He was my torture, he holds my soul,
He's the blood in my heart that keeps me living ...

I don't quite understand what's in your heart.
damn! i don't even know where to start!
your fingers trailing sweetly in my skin
are from the same hands that sent me crying.

I don't have no idea what's in your head,
but i know these tears are visible in our bed.
you want to be with me, but you think about her!
and when i ask for some clarification, you just wouldn't answer!

why can't you just go ahead and leave me here in pain?!
...

one day, i'll finally be out of debt!
one day, i can shop again till i drop!
one day, i will find again what makes me happy and will conclude again that my life is a perfect bliss, thus, it is boring.
one day, i can live with the man who would be so inlove with me that he won't let me go and would make happier than i ever thought i was.
one day, i will have my loved ones in one place.
one day, i will have that smile back.
one day, i will see myself enjoying the ...