I intentionally try to do him wrong, to test if he gives a damn about my life..
yet all he ever says is it's ok, he does not put a leash on me, and tries to understand my immaturity.
I ignore him till he calls in the middle of the night and all I ever say is kinsa ni, though I know kinsa jud to siya.. He wants us to be together yet I'm hesitant at relationships, cause I never even had one, he asks me how long he has to wait, I just stare at him in return.. I don't know if its love or its just the attention that I like so I did not say yes to him. But i liked him.
Now we are silent, and it seems we have our own lives to live, but im happy though, happy that I still have him as my friend.
Sometimes when I'm alone and daydreaming, I dream of the way he holds my hand and I suddenly feel terribly guilty that I treated him the way I did.
Bad girl.. hehehe